Music is powerful, for years music has been used as a way to express emotions that we can’t seem to only speak. Music brings both the strength of lyrics and musical harmony that has a way to touch our most inner being. Music not only helps us express our emotions, it has the ability to help us make sense of them, It holds the magic of bringing us back to a fond memory or provide us the strength to get through a tough time.
Through out my recovery from an eating disorder I often felt lonely, I often felt like I couldn’t put into words what I was going through or process the emotions I was feeling through out. I wanted to share this playlist with a few songs that I really resonated with during this time. It’s important to find a way to express these feelings. Music provided this for me. These songs not only helped me understand I wasn’t alone but also helped me know that things will get better. And they will. I hope you find your playlist.
You Can’t Rush your Healing – Trevor Hall ; “You can’t rush your healing
Darkness has its teachings
Love is never leaving
You can’t rush your healing” I love this song for reminding me that , we can’t rush our healing, and that darkness has meaning in our journey. This song reminds me to hold fast during the hard times. and that I am healing and healing takes time.
Recover -CHVRCHES ; “I’ll give you one more chance To say we can change our old ways
And you take what you need
And you know you don’t need me” This song is so powerful. I relate it to my eating disorder, “ED” it depicts the relationship and struggle one has with ED , saying “And if I recover
Will you be my comfort
Or it can be over
Or we can just leave it here
So pick any number
Choose any color
I’ve got the answer
Open the envelope.”
Crucify- Tori Amos ; “Why do we
I crucify myself
Nothing I do is good enough for you
And my heart is sick of being in chains” This song reminds me of the abusive relationship one has with “ED” the ever tiring struggle one has with his mean and vicious voice. No matter how much we try its never good enough for him.
Scars to Your Beautiful – Alessia Cara; “She just wants to be beautiful
She goes unnoticed, she knows no limits
She craves attention, she praises an image
She prays to be sculpted by the sculptor
Oh, she don’t see the light that’s shining
Deeper than the eyes can find it
Maybe we have made her blind” – this song really hits my core. It suggests that its not us who need to change. It’s the world. She continues to say “But there’s a hope that’s waiting for you in the dark
You should know you’re beautiful just the way you are
And you don’t have to change a thing, the world could change its heart
No scars to your beautiful, we’re stars and we’re beautiful” – Giving women/men empowerment to fight through the darkness and attempt to see the true unique beauty that is them.
One Step At a Time – Jordan Sparks; “We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There’s no need to rush
It’s like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It’s gonna happen when it’s
Supposed to happen and we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time” This song reminds me that we can only take one step at a time. Keep one foot in front of the other. continue forward. There is no need to rush.
Who you are- Jessi J “I stare at my reflection in the mirror:
“Why am I doing this to myself?”
Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf.” – – “It’s okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it’s hard to follow your heart.
Tears don’t mean you’re losing, everybody’s bruising,
Just be true to who you are!” — This song helped me realize that it’s okay to not be okay. Everyone is battling their own demons.
Follow The Sun-Xavier Rudd “Breathe, breathe in the air.
Set your intentions.
Dream with care.
Tomorrow is a new day for everyone,
Brand new moon, brand new sun.” — “When you feel life coming down on you,
Like a heavy weight.
When you feel this crazy society,
Adding to the strain.
Take a stroll to the nearest waters
And remember your place.
Many moons have risen and fallen long, long before you came.” – – This song reminded me that as big as our problems are… it helps to step back and retreat to nature, to become balanced and realize and remember what truly matters.
Breathe Me – SIA
“Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And the worst part is there’s no one else to blame..” — “Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
I am small and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me” — Describing that feeling of loneliness and hopelessness , this song speaks up for those who can’t express that they need a friend. someone to help hold them up.